Remember the stalker of acey? hahaha.. they met last saturday in eastwood.. now the guy is head over heels with acey.. iba talaga charms ni acey .. when he texts he sends the message twice.. take note.. twice hahaha.. hes trying hes best to set a date with acey.. sabi naman ni acey over her dead body.. she's not intereseted daw with the guy.. (sana) good luck nalang sa guy.. meron na me aabangan everyday..

Today is my brother's b-day. Acey stayed in our house until 1pm.. Thank God.. More quality time together .. My mom wanted her to be there, i wanted her to be there.. So after her work, around 4am, we first bought a cake then went straight home.. we arrived there around 5 to 5:30am. Ang sarap ng feeling.. its like before.. we slept in my room, watched tv.. sound trippin .. we slept from 6-11am.. but somethings wrong.. acey is kinda not feeling well.. after eating i brought acey home agad so she could rest.. my mom noticed na acey is not feeling well.. konti daw kinain nya.. knowing that the food that my mom cooked was her fave dish... she said acey is not herself daw.. parang something is wrong.. sabi ko she just has an upset stomach.. but when i woke her up today for work, she said her eyes are bloody red.. she called in sick today.. kakaguilty tuloy.. i feel na mashado sya napuyat because she is not use to staying up and having less time for sleep..
Sorry mims..

whats wrong with me? cant understand myself now.. feel so different.. i feel like i stopped doing something and something is missing. im trying to search myself for that thing.. for that missing link.. but i really dont know what it is.. damn it.. hate this when this happens.. i feel so cold.. heartless.. whats wrong now?!?

hope this would just be temporary.. later.. i hope im back to my old self again..

in other words... NATATANGA AKO!!!!!

this morning acey texted me this:

Acey: miss din po kita. paalis na kme d2 in a wyl.. miss kita. i love you mims. nate tempt n ko 2 say yes pro natatakot n ko magkamali.. tym lang cguro tlga..

haaay i think my wait is worth it.. hope it will be soon.. i know if time comes na maging kami ulit... it will be a great challenge to keep our relationship.. a simple mistake will result in great consequences... this is the challenge of being in a relationship the second time around.. i can't say that we won't have that little misunderstandings.. but this will be a challenge.. i just hope that malapit na talaga.. (nagfefeling lang talaga ako ) i might be wrong.. time will tell..

Dont get me wrong.. i like the way it is now.. pero.. mas gusto ko with a commitment.. pero there is still this great but.. natatakot ako magkamali.. i cant do anything that is stupid.. i really cant.. ako pa.. i tend do do stupid things.. little things that could piss her off instantly.. but im trying my best.. aint i showing my efforts now? basta.. i just wish everything would be the way it was before..

its true.. "every beginning has its end and every end has its beginnings..."

love is all about taking chances. im willing to take that chance and make the most out of it..

just my 2 cents..

sometimes, there are instances you just want to shout.. you just want to break stuffs.. you want to get even.. you want to argh!! but you just decide not to.. why? i dont know.. just understand the situation.. thats right.. you are an understanding person.. it your choice.., you can make it better and you can make it worse.. thats life.. just relax take a deep breath let the moment pass you by.. youll get over it
*ARRGGHHH*

*just releasing it here*

added some pix sa gallery.. ill collect pix that i can display in the gallery portion para ok naman tong blog ko kahit plain lang hahaha!

Not again.. there is another guy intereseted with my acey .. sana naman hindi maulit.. sana lord, dont repeat everything all over again.. no more heartaches no more tears.. were ok na.. we are happy.. sana we weill just be like this.. so we can work with this.. start something new..

how did that guy got aceys cell number? i know naman she is not the kind of gurl that would spread her number.. he even knows her name.. hmmm.. makes me wonder.. maybe its one of micky's henchmen.. one of his friends just trying to check up on her.. watchathink?

i dont want to be paranoid so ill let it be nalang.. its up to her.. will she entertain the guy? or dedmahin? im so curious tuloy

One week... what happened during that week of being dormant.. Nothing special happened to me this past week... nothing special.. just the same old rituals everyday.. go to work in the evening.. eat before bringing acey home.. sleeping.. same old same old.. nothing new... getting tired of the ritual but there is nothing to do.. all i can do is complain.. but hell i need the money..

These are the things that i can remember that is worth blogging down:

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Its almost june 12. our last day before our resignation.. Grabe.. ill miss PS.. il miss the people, the new friends, my work station (this is my first ever work station so you can just imagine the attatchment i have with my pc ) and my new barkada in GY (mitch, beth, wylmer). ill mis the chikahan, the kulitan and the asaran.. its good that we have this blog.. we can still be in touch with one another.. (thank you tag board! )

I feel ill be deppressed.. if only i could stay.. but being a doctor.. thats my dream.. how i wish you can live two lives separately

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Last Sunday, we ( me, acey, garet ) went to Casino Filipino.. our main objective is to win money!!! Win lotsa money!! we had dreams.. my dream is to buy a new phone a p900.. hahahaha! its not bad to dream.. tuloy.. after the night talagang dream on nalng ang nangyari..

This what happened... before the night, to make the night exciting and thrilling, i proposed to acey, "if we win even 10k tonight then its a sign.. a sign from god! " I think its a bad decision.. cuz i know if ever we dont win its only me who will be depressed.. i know the both of us are waitign for a sign.. she is waiting for a sign.. a sign from god that would tell her na its ok to be in a relationship again.. but its only me that is in a hurry. she doesnt want to rush things..

First, we went to Casino Filipino the one fronting NAIA. Upon entering the casino grounds.. Acey and I were inside already i was already looking around what to play.. what to do.. then.. garet called our attention and said that the lady guard didnt let her in.. garet told the lady guard that she was 18.. feeling that when you are 18 you can go in, like a rated R movie.. not knowing you need to be 21 to enter.. Because of this, we were dumbfounded.. acey was astonished! acey is younger than garet.. tapos si garet pa yung hindi pinapasok.. wow.. mas mukhang mature na si acey .. Because of this we were forced to transfer to Casino Filipino Heritage.. It was my first time to enter this particular casino.. When we entered.. we looked around.. The casino is not that big.. on the outside it looks big but when you enter the casino its so plain.. so small.. its not what i imagined.. So we look around.. i saw the chips that the people holding, they were 1,000 a chip.. the hell! we are just carrying 1000 pesos so thats 10 100s chips. Kakahiya.. kakahiya ipakita yung dala kong chips hehehe..

We were looking for the blackjack table.. because thats the only game we know how to play.. Almost all of the tables there were for super 6.. sayang.. i think it is an easy game because majority of the people playing the game are winning most of the time.. we focused our eyes on a table.. there were only 2 playing.. an old rich chinese looking man and a girl who looks like a pokpok that hooked up with a foreigner.. acey told us na this table "looks" like blackjack.. sabi ko na she be the one to play first.. im not in the mood.. actually im not that confident.. i had a bad feeling that night.. when she was about to bet.. we saw the minimum bet was 500 pesos.. wtf!! 500 pesos.. on the other tables the minimum was only 300.. oh well nakakahiya na umalis.. so there she placed 5 chips.. we were left with 500.. ang bilis.. our money was halved in less than a minute.. why? that table is not blackjack it was freakin a lucky6 table.. nagulat kami.. the guy handling the cards just took our chips away.. then aceys asked the guy.. what game is this.. yun pala MALI!! 500 pesos down the drain.. we asked the guy were was the freakin blackjack table.. he pointed us to the "only" take note! "only" blackjack table in the casino.. why? ill tell you why in a minute. (something to do with loosing money!)

acey told me its my turn to play.. i waited for the next game.. i saw the bets that the others were placing on the table.. one jap looking old guy with his wife (i think) were betting the max.. 6k! looking on there hand i could see that they also have 2 10k worth of chips.. then 4 high stacks of 1k chips. what rich people.. could they just give the money to us instead of gambling it and loosing it in the end??? i placed my bet.. 300 pesos.. its good, i won! sarap ng feeling.. so the money that returned was 600 pesos.. to we had 1.1k agad.. thank god.. it felt good. na feel ko na baka bigay ni lord ang hinihiling ko.. the sign thing.. hehehe... i opted to play again.. biglang minalas.. i lost 2 straight games... bigla ako na depressed.. not about the money.. pinatikim lang pala ako ni lord.. hanggang tikim lang daw ako that night. umasa ulit ako.. thats wrong.. dati natutoto na ako.. nothing will happen soon to us.. she even told me that.. i felt that.. but is it wrong to dream.. to believe in something? i stood up and told acey na "tara.. maya muna.." that fucking banker is good.. the stacks of chips that the foreigners were holding were getting shorter and lesser in numbers.. swerte lang talaga ng banker.. its his night..

Napansin ni acey na medyo badtrip me.. she asked me why? whats wrong? told her na i believed in our bet.. told her sayang.. i just told her na maybe its not ment to be.. its not yet the time.. she hugged me and told me na its ok.. soon daw.. soon...

So we returned to the table and gambled the remaining money we had.. at the end, we went out the casino loosing 2000k cash.. wow and it only took us almost 1 hr.. thats how fast it was.. thats how money flys..

we left the casino.. ate nalang in chowking and went straight home..

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Next day i went with acey to UERM to enroll.. after, we looked around the place for a dorm.. acey needs to live in an apartment or condo or dorm near the school because ang layo ng house nila from UE. let us also consider the traffic.. So good luck nalng dba.. thats why she needs to find a pad to crash every weekdays..

we saw a dorm.. its ok.. its clean.. its new.. barely 2 years since they started the business. the dorm was owned by the parents of tyrone tang.. (if you are a green archer you would know who this guy is) when we looked at the rooms.. its ok.. but not the kind of rooms that acey was expecting.. then when we asked how much its 6.5k for 1 month just for the rent.. la pa dun electricity and water bills.

then we talked about the house rules.. the rules where ok.. but the problem is no smoking and drinking.. and the best of all, NO VISTORS ALLOWED INSIDE!! wtf? pano ko na pupuntahan si acey? pano ako makikitambay... so sad.. sayang it looked ok naman na.. i think that is the best dorm near UE.. compared to the old buildings that looks like the dorms in scorpio nights 2 hahaha.. so acey told mrs tang na she will just decide on the dorm within the week..

we left and went to Greenhills to eat and window shop a little.. on our way to GH, acey called tin, her dormate sana.. she asked where tin's dorm was located. we went there.. aba when we saw the building.. it looks like Sh*t! we didn't inquire nalang..

We ate sa le ching.. for me.. its the best, affordable chinese dimsum place.. hehehehe! after eating we went to virra mall to have acey's 3650 traded-in.. she wants a 7650 instead.. for me natatakot ako cuz u know its 2nd hand.. u dont know y the previous owner traded-in the phone.. there can be only 2 reasons why.. its broken or they wanted a new phone.. pero i feel like most of the phones there are traded-in kasi something is wrong with the phone..

Acey decided not to go to work nalang that monday kasi she didn't have any decent sleep yet.. so brought her home agad after shopping.. natulog kami till mga 10-11 pm not that sure but i feel its around time we woke up..

I called acey using the landline.. we talked for a while.. we talked about us.. about micky... about them... then i said something that offended her.. after saying it.. she just hanged up on me.. at first nagalit me.. pero naintindihan ko din.. i know for the fact na i cant just tell acey what i trully feel inside.. i cant tell her that.. it will just make a gap between us.. i like the way things are nowadays.. kulang nalng magkaroon ng official commitment then us na talaga ulit.. but now.. its like us pa din eh.. i know she feels the same way.. its just she just doenst like to have a commitment pa din.. but it feels like we are in one.. hehe we are just denying the fact na we have a commitment.. (hey this is what i feel lang ha.. feeler ako e.. kugn gusto nyo try going to her blog read her blog.. ask her questions or whatever.. aceys blog )

I remained silent.. i felt something was happening pero ok lang na talaga.. i texted her the morning.. then she told me na micky texted daw.. its good na she didnt text.. thats what she said.. pero texted or not i dont care anymore .. (bitter)

Para sa sakin past is past.. i just want to start something new.. hope its that easy.. i hope na makakalimutan namin lang lahat ng mga pagkakamali.. mga kasalanan sa isat isa.. sana that is just possible..

more to come promise..

GODAMNIT! now i have something to write but there is no time.. what the hell is wrong with netsol? damn it!

I don't feel like writing yet.. TINATAMAD NA AKO... till the next time.. if i ever find the time again..